How many on this board from lower puna?

[punalvr]

I feel for you Freespirit, and understand all that you have stated. I have, in the past, faced similar situations.
You are correct. When one door closes, another opens up somewhere. Sometimes is hard to find it, because of the darkness left behind when that door closed. That's when I flip, but once my eyes have adjusted to the dark, that is when I can see the opening door.
Mahalo,

punalvr