02-26-2008, 03:19 AM
As far as "white kids" go, my former neighbor(Agora Hills) is an airline pilot and his wife ran a marketing company from home. Very nice people all around and they made decent money. Their kids are "fugged up" though(white). The son is serving "juevenile life" in a state facility because he started a barn fire and killed a friend of his at 16. He gets released at age 25. I'm sure he is a future serial killer in training. The youngest daughter is 15 and she is "preggers" from her 22 year old "man", who I'm confident is a "crip" due to his love of the color blue, his love of wearing of blue bandanas cowboy style over his face and his nicely restored 63 Chevy Impala with a gold placard in the shape of the number "13" in the rear window. He also openly bandishes firearms at whim. He wanted to "show" me his "new" Glock one day as I was washing my car in the driveway, lovely. The midle girl dresses daily like she just jumped off stage from a production of "Rocky horror picture show" and now she's a "porn producer". Basically, she just films all her freaky little friends having sex and sells them on the web. These kids had everything they ever wanted but still they are messed up.
Now let me tell you about "Melissa". Melissa lives next door to us now in the "City". Melissa's mom(asian) had her at about age 17 from a guy(white) she met working at Target. The "dad" was a loser who did jail time for drugs but he came from a "Great" family that lived in Simi Valley. Saying that in LA is supposed to mean something to some people. Melissa's mom dumped her off onto the Grandmother who doesn't speak English to raise while the "mom" got her life together. Mom did eventually get her life together and met a decent guy(Mexican) that she married and had four more kids with. Melissa never got to be the "baby", she never had her parents at all of her "special life events", she never got the advice, she never got the support or guidence of a Mother. Melissa has all the excuses to explain away having a crappy ass life. Melissa raised herself, one burned pot of macaroni and cheese at a time. Melissa grew strong,one bleached out faded washer load of jeans at a time. Melissa,s "Mom" wasn't dead..she just didn't want Melissa anymore. Melissa's mom just went on to live another life without her. ocassionally popping in to exert her "Momness' on Mellissa or pass her $10. Still with all that mellissa picked herself up from that. She marched forward thru all of that and never gave up, never quit. She's plugging her way through school right now and is going to finish her undergrad this spring. She is going to make it, Mellissa is going to beat the odds.
When you just don't have it in you, you quit. Some people just adapt better than others. Some people just look for excuses why things might not be working out. Some people just don't quit. Some people make the best of things and control the things that directly impact them. Some people you just have to ignore, or look at, laugh and say.."look at that dumb ass carrying a case of beer on the side of the road. I hope he drops it".
Puna is my "end-game". I'm not gonna squeak out a living being there now. That doesn't make sense to me or to any other sane person. I can wait 15 to 20 years, But can you imagine the work i can do on a lot in 15 years ?
I wish you luck on your journey and i hope that you are strong, not just strong, Mellissa strong.